The Lord ALWAYS knows when we are, or are going to have hard times. HE sends tender mercies to prepare us for those times and then stays with us and holds our hands as we go through them.
This week I was blessed with some of those tender mercies.
I have been on the last week and a half of Radiation Treatments. So far, other then being tired, I have done well. Well on Monday I started into my last segment and for these last treatments, they give you what they call a "boost" of Radiation. They concentrate it and just about double it.
Monday I felt really good, got up had a great walk and a great day. Tuesday, the same, even went shopping with Alan to Costco and had a tender mercies at Costco, as we ran into a man in our ward who is a Pharmacist and I was able to ask him about the medicine that I will have to take starting next week. I had been worrying about it and did not know how to approach him and there he was at Costco. He helped me feel a little better about the medicine. By Wednesday I was thinking wow, this is not so bad, maybe the boost is giving me extra energy. I felt so good on Wednesday, that for my scripture study time, I not only studied my scriptures ( The Book of Mormon), but I studied some conference talks, read the Ensign and read in a wonderful book by Sis. Holland ( A Quiet Heart, I highly recommend it). I had such an outpouring of the spirit I just sat there and cried. It was wonderful. I knew Heavenly Father had been and was watching over me and I felt such gratitude for HIS tender care through this experience of cancer treatments.
Then Wednesday night hit and I started not feeling so well. I woke up from a long night of not feeling good, to a horrible headache Thursday morning. I laid on the couch for all day, except to go to Radiation and a Dr. appt. after. At the Dr. appt. I about passed out and barely made it into the car and started throwing up. I had Alan give me a Priesthood blessing Thursday night and felt comfort. I slept a little better Thursday night and by Friday morning felt a little better. stuck with toast, crackers and Gatorade Thursday and Friday for food and last night my head finally stopped hurting as much and my stomach has calmed down. This morning I woke up and felt so much better, still not 100%, but getting there. Grateful I do not have Radiation again until Monday.
Now, why to I share all this? Because through it all, I kept remembering Wednesday and the power of the spirit and how it spoke to me. I am so grateful for the Tender Mercies I received Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday, especially Wednesday. I knew the Lord knew what would happen over the next 2 1/2 days and HE gave me strength to not only get through it, but stayed with me as I went through it.
I know that HE never leaves us to suffer on our own, HE is always close by and if we listen, we hear HIM, through the Still Small Voice of the Holy Ghost as HE encourages us through tough times.
I love HIM, I know HE lives and I know that one day, if I am worthy, I will kiss HIS feet and tell HIM thank you for my life and helping me through it.
I know I can not do this or anything in my life alone, I need HIM and I am grateful HE hears and answers and comes to my rescue.
